According to James Joyce, “Mistakes are the portals of discovery.” Joyce is saying each decision simply takes us down a different path. That’s cool and all but I’m afraid of portals.
This year I turned 50 and can’t remember the last time I was sure of my next step. At 18, I felt safe and secure in my own skin. I didn’t need to do or be anything special. I had the luxury of knowing it all and blind bravery.
Since then, I’ve made some fantastic mistakes, lots of them: I married when I was 20, to the wrong guy. I refused several good opportunities to get ahead because they weren’t ‘good enough’ for me at the time. I failed to show up for friends and family. I didn’t pursue my passions early in life and listened to the naysayers….the list is endless.
These days mistakes feel like life is skidding a little out of control. I pump the gas pedal and hope for the best. Sometimes that works….When it’s all over, I spend a ridiculous amount of time reflecting on that mistake worried I’ll repeat it…which I often do.
Yet, all of my mistakes have brought me here at this time. At 50 I have a great group of friends, a good job and love in my life. I’m healthy. I think I’ll try making some mistakes. It worked for 18 year old me. It got me this far…
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